![]() ![]() And there lies the problem with us not talking. Haley is wrong about a lot of things, actually. It’s like she thinks that everything I do revolves around me trying to woo her. Oh, and it can’t ever be me just being friendly to her, it’s always just creepy or weird or something. Ok, wrong of me to be so weird by writing that, but wrong of her to not accept that MAYBE I was just being friendly. It was probably the part where I told her to hang out with me if she didn’t have anyone else… which she probably took as me saying that I was going to follow her around and be with her all the time. I guess she just thought I was being a creep. I thought that was a good gesture, but apparently she didn’t. I mean, how could be friends if she wouldn’t talk to me? It was really confusing, too, because only a week or two prior, we were talking, and I felt like we were having a good time talking to each other and that she didn’t hate me-but that all changed after I sent that message trying to convince her to come to camp. She was pretty much just ignoring me, and that made me so frustrated. Of course, there was also some other stuff. Stupid! As you can see, I didn’t really get off to a good start. I put God second in my life for my own selfish desires. But if I keep going on like this, I’ll detract from the “Thoughts about Haley” section of this post… Number 2: Grow closer to God. I feel like a pathetic, stupid loser because of it. I really wish that I just wanted to be friends. I don’t know, maybe you all don’t understand this, but I hate that I’m being like this. ![]() But, in retrospect, I didn’t mean it (and that was one of the things I dealt with the first few days of camp). Sure, in the heat of the moment, writing those blogs, maybe I thought I meant it. Not to mention, a liar, as well! I know I’ve been telling you guys that I want to be “just friends” with her, but I was lying. So, why in the world would I take an emotional investment in something that I knew couldn’t come to fruition? I was being stupid. I knew that Haley would not like me romantically, not that week, and not in the foreseeable future (and I would say “ever” but anything’s possible, I guess). I went in wanting something that couldn’t happen. Number 1: Become friends with Haley or cause her to like you. Entering camp week, I had two main goals for camp. This preface is for me to tell you what I was feeling before camp. PrefaceIt’s possible that you didn’t get this out of reading recent posts, so I’ll sum it up right here. ![]()
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